I was gripped by fear.
Fear of the future, fear of not having a college and career plan set in stone, fear of things not going how I want them to.
I knew deep down that these were fears planted by the enemy that I didn’t need to live in bondage to. Everyone told me just to let go and trust God. But I couldn’t.
Because fear doesn’t like to loosen it’s hold.
I prayed and prayed and prayed but it wouldn’t go away. Um, God? Have you forgotten about me?
Of course I knew He really was with me, that He would never leave me or forsake me.
But fear has the power to make you forget truths you never thought you’d lose sight of.
Sunday morning, I brought my fears to the table. My dear friends prayed over me, praying that I would know His faithfulness.
And then at church, something so beautifully and wildly crazy happened. God sang over me. He spoke words of love and life over me. He reminded me that I can build my life upon His love! He told me that in the midst of fear and anxiety and uncertainty He is faithful.
He told me that story about a man named Joseph, a man who was confident in the fact that God had something extra-special in store for Him. But as he sat in a lonely prison cell, he started to second guess those dreams. Um, God? I thought you said you had a plan and a purpose for me…where are you and why am I here?
But God was right there with Him (Genesis 39:21).
And then He said to me what He taught Joseph in that prison cell so many years ago: You are my treasured possession, Grace. And I have plans to prosper you, to give you hope, and to give you a future. Will you trust me in the wait? I am faithful to fulfill my promises to you.
Tears poured down my face as I clearly saw the loving face of my Savior, who cares enough to carefully craft the most breath-taking future for me. And even in the wait, He will hold me, and strengthen me, and sustain me.
“Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations” (Deuteronomy 7:9)
“But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.” (2 Thessolonians 3:3)
“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore He will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him!” (Isaiah 30:18)
He loves you unfailingly. He knows you deeply. He has prepared in advance good and beautiful things for you to do (Ephesians 2:10).
Now I can testify that trusting Him is hard.
But He is with you in the waiting! He is right by your side, running along with you through it all.
“Will you trust me?” – Abba Father